My People Problems

I wish I could get myself to feel that I can talk to others about myself, our disagreements, or even what we actually agree on, like even that last part can be so incredibly hard for me? I just always feel like doing any of that will somehow make everything worse, even if rationally, I know there are things wrong with my thought process here haha.  I just feel like the more people know about me, the more they would hate me but it's also terrible to think about spending my entire life trying to emotionally distance myself from everyone to prevent people from stomping all over my feelings. 

On the other hand, I do feel that not only is privacy very important to me, but some things are just tmi and a lot of people probably don't want to hear that kind of thing any more than I want to talk about it, right?  Like not only is it in my own best interests to keep some pieces of information to myself, but it's in other people's best interests not to deluge them with information that's not useful to them and that they don't want to hear. 

So if I want to fix this, I have to somehow distinguish between information I should divulge, and information I shouldn't, all while my brain is telling me that a good 90% of such information definitely falls in the 'should not be divulged' category.

Life is hard.

Communication

I'd just like to say that mostly I appreciate when people talk to me, and the reason I often don't reply or don't reply promptly is just because I often feel overwhelmed at the prospect of communication.  That's something I want to work on, because I usually do have something to say, even if it's just to express appreciation of what was said.  And sometimes people have said something really thoughtful that I'd like to respond to in an equally thoughtful way, and sometimes I've even gotten to the formulating-a-response stage and then when I go to write it--nothing.  Nothing comes out.

My communication skills are under construction...