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So, I decided to make this easier on myself, and use an already existing framework--the Creative Commons licenses. My terms for derivative works of my fanworks are the same as presented in this license:

Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International (CC BY-NC 4.0)

If you want to make sure I'm okay with something not explicitly allowed by that license, you will need to ask me first. I'll decide that sort of stuff on a case-by-case basis. But all the stuff allowed by that license is fine for you to do without asking me first.

Since these are fanworks we're talking about, you should keep in mind that copyrights of the original works these are based on still apply, of course.

Also, while I do not require this, I hope you'll point out any derivative works you make to me! I've been delighted by any fic or art based on my work that I've seen thus far, but even if I didn't personally like a work, I wouldn't begrudge an author making it. Because it's impossible to anticipate all possible derivative works that could be created from my own, I will say that such works do not have my automatic endorsement, but I allow them and I might even promo ones that I personally enjoy!
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I definitely only expect to get along with a limited number of people since that's just the nature of people, that we don't all get along with each other, and also I am not optimized for getting along with others anyway.

Still, I think I'm rather friendly considering I could get most if not all my socialization needs met as a forest hermit. I don't need to socialize for the most part, and I find it rather difficult, but I nevertheless still enjoy talking to people and find it very worthwhile.
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I haven't been on an airplane in a long time but I used to travel on them a fair amount when I was younger and I never understood being bored on airplanes. Tired, sure; all that time sitting in a metal tin can filled with pressurized recycled air, makes sense it would tend to make people tired, but I would just fall asleep if I got tired so...boredom problem solved.

So surely boredom can't actually be the primary complaint about plane flights? It must be something else. Perhaps pain or discomfort? Or anxiety? Maybe the small size of the seats and inadequate legroom? Maybe having the type of acrophobia that makes one afraid of flying? I actually do have acrophobia, but it seems to primarily be set off in an open air context--I'd only worry about my plane crashing if it was experiencing severe turbulence or if I had reason to believe it was already in danger of crashing. Which is maybe another reason I would never get bored on flights. I love looking out the window. Plane rides have the ultimate view.

But even if I couldn't look out the window, I could still read or take something else to occupy me. And failing any of that, I could daydream.

So am I just the weirdo for thinking plane flights are fun and other people really do find them boring, or is the dislike of plane flights (and maybe the boredom too) actually caused by discomfort or anxiety as I theorize above?
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We go on social media for connection or entertainment or to stay informed. The casual +10 in mental damage attached to random posts is the occupational hazard.
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The 'phile' suffix is such an awful choice for a word describing child sexual exploitation and abuse. For anyone not already aware, 'phile' derives from the greek 'philos' meaning 'beloved' and the related suffix is used in English to denote a love of something or someone. I really think it's one of the most insidious things our psychiatric institions have done to imply that child sexual abuse is done out of a 'love' for children (the term pedophile is a psychiatric term and it's still listed in the DSM today).

And I'm personally not someone who thinks we should always prioritize changes in language since I think for a number of reasons, that can unfortunately be counterproductive at times. Sometimes it takes the focus too much away from the actual concrete changes we want to make. But I do think there's value in thinking about the implications that words have and understanding when there may be valid reasons for people to dislike certain words and choose to avoid them.
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https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cP2EXzhDVH4

Why does a children's author keep the company of so many woman and girl hating monsters?
 
Also, since people may use this to try to descredit this video, I am aware of this snopes article regarding the Epstein - Rowling connection but I think it's important to note:

1. The Snopes article as of today issues none of its usual Yes, No, or even Maybe verdicts on whether Rowling was in the Epstein files. The Snopes article sticks to implications rather than stating its conclusions firmly and outright.

2. The Snopes article gets an F in investigative reporting given its complete lack of analysis of the emails in question and Rowling's response to them. The video, on the other hand, gives a detailed analysis of both, as well as supplying additional context.

Snopes is not an arbiter of truth any more than any other source is. The quality of an argument must be based on the evidence it presents and its analysis of that evidence. It must also be based on whether or not an argument is being made.

The video shows that the existing facts on record make the idea that Epstein and Rowling were friends a reasonable one worthy of further scrutiny, and the additional context shows fairly unequivocally that regardless of whether the Epstein connection exists that Rowling is not the staunch defender of (cis) women and (cis) children that she claims to be, and rather is, at the best, an inattentive and passive enabler of some of the most powerful rapists and pedophiles of our day, and at worst, a close personal friend and active enabler of more than one of them.

Also note that since the video presenter is British and the British legal system favors accusers of libel, the note at the beginning is probably for legal purposes.
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I don't believe in having heroes, and I am suspicious of hero-worship in all of its forms. The rich and the famous are the worst group to choose heroes from, and also the most popular, but nothing good can lead to unquestioningly idolizing any individual, whether they are rich or poor, famous or unknown, a parasocial connection only or your best and closest friend since childhood.
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Humans are obligately social, but that doesn't mean we necessarily do well around other humans. While I'm not as much of a recluse as I used to be, I still typically greatly prefer solitude to just about any social situation. The way I see it, socializing is a game with a bunch of rules that aren't written down and you just have to figure out yourself. Oh, and the rules change depending on who else is playing. And you can't just. Not play.

And this is not me suggesting everyone just be explicit about all their expectations. Because I realize that is not necessarily possible or desirable in all situations.

But I will say. There are some things that really frustrate me about the unspokenness of it all.
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I think one of the biggest problems in character judgment is what I call the 'but they were always nice to me' fallacy. It's the fallacy that because someone was always good to you or generally pleasant or decent in the contexts in which you dealt with them, that they are that way to everyone else or in all other contexts.

There are people I know who are unpleasant with me who might be otherwise decent people, or who might be absolutely delightful with others. There are people who have been perfectly nice to me, who I know due to them mentioning details about their past or catching hints of it in casual remarks of theirs are deeply unpleasant to others, or even have committed full-scale atrocities on others. You can't truly understand the scope of a person simply by how they behave to you or around you. People don't treat everyone they meet with the same level of regard or fairness and they don't in general present the same face to everyone.

There are many people in the world who are Jekyll to some and Hyde to the rest. Alternately, there are people who may be awful to you for reasons that would be understandable to you if you had the distance to be less affected by their actions and the perspective to understand their reasons.
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While I do have a small number of locked posts, for the most part, everyone can see every post I post here. This is because my blog is not my diary.

In fact my diary largely exists only in my head. I feel this gives its contents maximum security, though it does have the disadvantage of being somewhat unreliable.

In any event, if I put a post on my blog, the purpose is generally for other people to see it, whether it's discussing an interest of mine or political thoughts or even thoughts about myself or my personal life. I think social media is great for sharing thoughts, so I like to take advantage of that. It does unfortunately increase my noticeability, but I feel compelled to share ideas.
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I've long accepted that I just need to interact with other people if I am going to live in a society, as we do, but I also think there are a lot of problems with me doing that which have no easy answers.

I was meant to be the person sitting quietly in the corner, passively observing other people interacting. But since the world is such a dumpster fire, I guess I have to do stuff or whatever.

Lurking

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Having been a constant lurker at one time, I can sort of understand people who don't like to post anything, even if its not particularly private.

At the same time, because of how social media works, lurkers are often a lot more obvious in these environments due to people making empty accounts to follow others. So it's not pure lurking, because the person being observed knows you are there, which may creep them out.
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It occurs to me that I haven't been as active seeking out communities on Dreamwidth as I have on Pillowfort. That's something I should maybe look into.

This is not to say that I haven't joined or participated in any comms here, because I certainly have, or even that I haven't made my own, because I have also done that. Just that I feel like I haven't done that as extensively here as I have on Pillowfort.
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I think there's a tendency to do one of two politically harmful things: one of which is to mistake self-punishment for politically restorative action, another is to mistake an active choice to remain politically ignorant for avoiding the former.

I think it is important to avoid both of these tendencies. We must guard against the tendency to criticize ourselves merely for the sake of criticism, as if our guilt alone somehow cleanses us of culpability. We must guard against the attempt to expose ourselves to the negative merely for the sake of it, but also against the tendency to avoid the negative and the unpleasant because we assume political futility; because we assume there is no value in knowledge that may be difficult or upsetting for us to confront. Because there is value in that knowledge--confronting that knowledge is the first necessary step to the actions that can heal our world.
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The only reason it's ever more difficult to eat vegan is due to the selective way that that food is stocked in grocery stores and what is presented in restaurants.

Most of it is relatively easy to veganize, certainly nothing that would be beyond the current abilities of stores and restaurants. And this would certainly not be preserving the 'just pay more for stuff with cheaper ingredients' nonsense or 'just put up with an extremely abbreviated range of choices' nonsense or the 'just remove the meat leaving a sad shell of a meal' nonsense or the 'serve something completely different and unrelated to the regular theme of the restaurant' nonsense that is so often employed for vegan food replacements.

Like the primary reason processed vegan food is often so comparatively expensive is that it doesn't have access to the economies of scale that nonvegan food does. If it did we'd be able to get huge blocks of vegan cheese for less than it costs to make dairy cheese. Likewise, there's no inherent reasons that there needs to be fewer types of vegan options available. In my vegan utopia, there will be as many options of vegan cheese as there is dairy cheese in our current meat dystopia. More options, even! Vegan green cheese with vegan green ham! Vegan bleu cheese and Star Wars style vegan blue cheese! And more!

Also, why is it so common to think that the vegan version of a dish is just the meat version with the meat removed? If I want a replacement for spaghetti and meatballs, I want a vegan substitute for the meatballs. You can't just say, "Oh, I veganized spaghetti and meatballs" and then just give me a plain spaghetti with marinara, no parmesan! Unacceptable! Vegan meatballs are cheap and no more difficult to produce than murder meatballs. Even making vegan parmesan at home is just a few ingredients, a food processor, and a few minutes of time away. Am I to believe restaurants cannot possibly handle this?

Also, if the theme of the restaurant is barbecue, why is the vegan dish a hummus platter? Am I to believe that barbecue soy curls or seitan or jackfruit or tofu are all somehow too hard for a restaurant?

Like the only reason any of this is ever comparatively harder for customers is because of an active, concerted effort by suppliers to suck up to the meat and animal products industries.
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The best amount of money for someone to have is enough. Happiness is not independent of money, but it also cannot increase endlessly in correspondence with increasing income. An impoverished person's happiness can benefit greatly from more money, a rich person, not so much. There are so many bizarrely miserable billionnaires in this world.
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So in the Murderbot Diaries Gurathin and Murderbot start off intensely disliking each other, and I found this one of the most enjoyable dynamics in both the book and the TV show. Characters who have to work together but hate each other are like catnip to me. Absolute best character dynamic two characters can have.

Interestingly, I think the TV show does more to develop this rivalry and the character of Gurathin than the books actually do. A big part of this is that the books don't actually give Gurathin a backstory, whereas the show does. And so while there are aspects of the books I definitely prefer, I'm giving the show a big W for how it took one of my favorite parts of the original story and made it even better.
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Well, I finished watching the Murderbot TV show last night. Had to wait until I could watch it without paying Apple money (and without doing anything too hard). I find it interesting to do comparisons between books and their adaptations, which I can do here, since I've read most the Murderbot series now and the adaptation only covers the first book.

Here's my thoughts:

My initial impression from the trailer that they made the PresAux team seem like way over-the-top commune hippies was unfortunately quite correct. This annoyed me because it was so unnecessary. All the PresAux team are scientists and none of them have any combat experience, so there's no need to 'explain' why they need Murderbot's help with giant creatures trying to eat them or people trying to murder them.

I did enjoy the Sanctuary Moon additions, though. A tv show is the perfect format to depict a fake tv serial.

I don't think LeeBeeBee was a particularly necessary addition, but I'm not surprised she was added since she creates an extra element of tension in the show, particularly since they often tried to actively avoid interpersonal tension between the PresAux crew.

There was *alot* of body horror in the show. Like I was not expecting that much body horror. Did not enjoy that part lol.

I did find the show's use profanity amusing, though.

I don't remember all the book details to be sure about everywhere the tv show deviates from the book but I do know that the show has a number of deviations, one of the most noticeable being whenever it shifts to 3rd person perspective. The book is told from 100% first person perspective. I personally liked the 3rd person additions and thought they helped the show.

The standout characters in both the book and show besides Murderbot are Mensah and Gurathin. The black nail polish for Gurathin was a nice touch. The actor did a great job portraying the character.

Now I want to talk a bit about the themes here regarding the corporations, workers, and slavery. The show expands on the Corporation Rim stuff in a way that's in line with how it's portrayed in the books. Which is to say, it portrays the corporations as evil while avoiding any kind of class-consciousness.

Now, that may be a bit of a controversial statement, so I'll elaborate.

Neither the indentured workers nor the enslaved bots outside Murderbot are portrayed particularly sympathetically in either the book All Systems Red or the show, and they certainly aren't portrayed to advance any thematic call for liberation of workers, even enslaved workers.

Preservation is portrayed as good because it is a place where slavery doesn't happen, but it's not working to liberate slaves any more than the Jedi are in Star Wars. And just like how Qui-Gon upholds the legitimacy of slavery in Star Wars by purchasing Anakin from Watto, PresAux upholds the legitimacy of slavery by purchasing Murderbot from the corporation. These sci-fi stories have more regressive politics than what came out of the Civil War, where former slaves successfully fought for chattel slavery to be abolished.

The message in this show, as in the books, is that the system is inevitable, the system is undefeatable, and nothing you can do can change it. It's political nihilism dressed up as anti-capitalistic messaging. I don't think this was necessarily intentional by Martha Wells, but I do think it's why Apple found this particular story such an attractive one for adaptation. Like Severance, it gives the appearance of anti-corporate messaging that actually reinforces the beliefs and behaviors that allow corporations to continue doing what they currently do.

Corporations are also emphasized to be rational actors that would never intentionally do anything that jeopardizes the corporation's profits in both the books and show which is just not true in real life. Additionally, corporations are also shown as necessarily losing money getting people killed which is far from being a given in real life.

So, I thought it was a fun show. Just nothing revolutionary.
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I think one misconception that often gets spread about anti-imperialism, even by people who support it, is that it entails the imperial core being 'worse off' than it is now. In reality, it would only necessarily entail change, which every choice, including the status quo, will entail. If we are going to characterize a situation as worse, I think we need to answer the questions of 'in what way' and 'for who' and 'compared to what', because I think those questions would also help illuminate how certain very important things, like housing, water, food, and medical support would actually be much better for the vast majority of people, regardless of where they live.

I mean, it's not going to be better for billionnaires of course, but who cares?

Are cheap bananas in the imperial core really 'better' than having enough food without worry? Than reliable healthcare?
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I think one big question whenever anyone like me talks about abolishing copyright is how to make sure that people who create works that would currently be placed under copyright would be compensated.

I want to first say that copyright does not exist to ensure fair compensation for creators. In the extremely unlikely situation that should happen to occur, it is, contrary to popular belief, an exception, a bizarre fluke. No, the rule is that copyright, in the vast majority of cases, serves as one of two things:

1. A lottery ticket to dangle above the poor. A way to get a larger mass of support for the laws underlying copyright besides the support of their primary beneficiaries.

2. A way for the primary beneficiaries of copyright, corporate suits who have never had an original thought in their life, to steal the rightful income of creators.

This is why I believe that copyright is worse for creators than having nothing at all.

Nevertheless, I do think there is something better than both copyright and not having any special incentives for creators. A system based on compensating digital works per copy viewed or downloaded. Note I didn't say 'bought'.

Because this system would compensate creators even if the work wasn't bought. Now, even in a system like this, some digital copies might go uncompensated. One can imagine scenarios where that would be possible. However, gone would be the days where someone else takes your work, sells it or gives it away for free, you find out, but aren't able to ever recoup that income. Instead, this system would compensate you for those works as well. At the same time, the other person would also be compensated for their advertising and distribution work. And thus, the pirate of today is tomorrow's (free to you!) advertiser and distributor.

Now, obviously, this system would require extensive logging technology. However, that technology largely already exists--activity counters and social media--it's mostly a matter then of modifying some specifics for that software and building the social and legal framework required to make a system like this work.

Any system created by humans can be changed by humans.
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I think it's important to understand that what has been happening today to Palestinians in Gaza and the West Bank, the apartheid, the stolen land, the arbitrary incarcerations, the torture, the massacres, and the genocide have been going on since at least the founding of Israel. Israel only exists because of the Nakba, a massive genocide of Palestinians to kill and displace them in order for Israelis to take their land. Therefore, it is not only genocide denial to deny what has taken place in Gaza for the past 2 years, but to say that the conflict between Palestinians and Israelis started on Oct 7, 2023. To deny the Nakba is genocide denial.

The genocide of Palestinians hasn't been happening for 2 years, but 77 years. And it is upon this foundation that everything about Palestine and Israel must be understood.
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