Disadvantages of Normality
Apr. 5th, 2021 05:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
unspeakablehorrorWhat really drives me up the wall is that while there are definitely aspects of quarantining that are really getting to me, it's also gotten me to realize how much stress I feel in more normal times, even when I'm just doing something fun, because of the larger social expectations. I am just way more functional when I'm exposed to a greatly reduced set of social expectations, and I don't know how I feel about that.
I've always known I was an introvert, but sometimes it's hard to realize just how much stress something causes until it's gone. I just didn't realize how much stress built up in me over the course of a typical day. Especially as contrasted to how much social anxiety I felt as a kid, since I had immense amounts of social anxiety when I was younger. There's also the fact that staying close to home means that doing daily tasks breaks up my day a lot less, but at the same time really gets to me because I love being outside and going places. While I can still find plenty to do in my own little neighborhood and home, I miss travelling to neighboring towns and cities just to sightsee.
I've always known I was an introvert, but sometimes it's hard to realize just how much stress something causes until it's gone. I just didn't realize how much stress built up in me over the course of a typical day. Especially as contrasted to how much social anxiety I felt as a kid, since I had immense amounts of social anxiety when I was younger. There's also the fact that staying close to home means that doing daily tasks breaks up my day a lot less, but at the same time really gets to me because I love being outside and going places. While I can still find plenty to do in my own little neighborhood and home, I miss travelling to neighboring towns and cities just to sightsee.