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unspeakablehorrorIn general, I like people, but I also really do best when I have a lot of solitude. I'm just extremely introverted on a lot of levels, though interestingly there are things about interacting with others that don't bother me but bother even a lot of extroverts. Like public speaking. Which did terrify me when I was younger, but due to help from someone who I will forever feel indebted to, I was actually able to lose a lot of my fear around that. Which is not to say that it's an anxiety-free experience for me, but I can handle it and even enjoy it at times.
I've also heard that introverts tend to be more likely to suffer from agoraphobia, which has never been a problem for me, either. I love being outside, and before the covid-19 pandemic I didn't even feel particularly bothered being around crowds (and now I only avoid them because, you know, I don't want plague, lol).
I enjoy learning about other people, though I don't know that I ask enough or the right questions of others. I also have difficulty feeling close to or trusting other people. I think one aspect of that, feeling of group affiliation, is kind of broken for me, though honestly I have ambivalent feelings about 'fixing' this issue of mine. Because I think my constant questioning of every narrative I'm given is partly tied to my dubious feelings regarding group affiliation, but I also think that working with groups is the only feasible way to accomplish certain things I would very much like to do. So how I want to navigate that issue is a somewhat tricky question for me.
I've also heard that introverts tend to be more likely to suffer from agoraphobia, which has never been a problem for me, either. I love being outside, and before the covid-19 pandemic I didn't even feel particularly bothered being around crowds (and now I only avoid them because, you know, I don't want plague, lol).
I enjoy learning about other people, though I don't know that I ask enough or the right questions of others. I also have difficulty feeling close to or trusting other people. I think one aspect of that, feeling of group affiliation, is kind of broken for me, though honestly I have ambivalent feelings about 'fixing' this issue of mine. Because I think my constant questioning of every narrative I'm given is partly tied to my dubious feelings regarding group affiliation, but I also think that working with groups is the only feasible way to accomplish certain things I would very much like to do. So how I want to navigate that issue is a somewhat tricky question for me.