Musings on People Disliking Me

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I think probably the reason that *I* would consider most valid for someone to dislike me is that I'm kind of a coward.  Not always, but enough that I think it impacts my ability to actually be a good person.  That's not necessarily the reason I think most people who might dislike me would dislike me for, though.  I think that's probably me not being as meek and agreeable as I may appear to be.  I have a strong instinct to present myself as a very non-descript person, but I cannot adequately keep up that front constantly and so sometimes people may realize that I am an extremely opinionated person with a deep well of strong emotions they may not be prepared to accept.

Another reason that I think people might dislike me is my lack of certain social graces, which I don't view as either always a good reason for disliking me or always a bad one.  After all, while I don't consider my lack in that area evil in and of itself, and I am certainly a victim of many of the problems it may have caused, I also have little doubt that this has at times caused harm to others.  And even if I don't want or intend for that harm to be caused, I don't believe that the harm caused is unimportant merely because I didn't intend it.