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Wish I was Better With Languages
Feb. 1st, 2019 12:20 amIf I knew more languages I could finally find out what some of these fanfics on AO3 are about...
Feb. 1st, 2019
Confrontation
Feb. 1st, 2019 08:41 pmI really think I need to do something about how confrontation-averse I am.
I certainly don't think I should externalize every disagreement I have--sometimes, as much as certain things bother me, those things are not really where I should be focusing attention. If someone is wrong on the internet, it's not always a good use of my time to refute them.
But sometimes confrontation is the only way certain things can be dealt with. Sometimes it is worth the trouble. Unfortunately, it takes quite an emotional toll on me. But so do the extravagant lengths I often go to in order to avoid those confrontations.
Although I do think I assert myself more often and better than I used to. I just don't think that's nearly good enough. Also, the way I figured out some of my current confrontation strategies was learning from extremely bad experiences, and I really, really, don't like the idea of that being a habitual learning strategy. As much as failure is said to be important for learning, some types of failure have considerable consequences that should be avoided when possible. The obvious example being failures that end in death, but that's certainly not the only outcome I'd like to avoid.
I certainly don't think I should externalize every disagreement I have--sometimes, as much as certain things bother me, those things are not really where I should be focusing attention. If someone is wrong on the internet, it's not always a good use of my time to refute them.
But sometimes confrontation is the only way certain things can be dealt with. Sometimes it is worth the trouble. Unfortunately, it takes quite an emotional toll on me. But so do the extravagant lengths I often go to in order to avoid those confrontations.
Although I do think I assert myself more often and better than I used to. I just don't think that's nearly good enough. Also, the way I figured out some of my current confrontation strategies was learning from extremely bad experiences, and I really, really, don't like the idea of that being a habitual learning strategy. As much as failure is said to be important for learning, some types of failure have considerable consequences that should be avoided when possible. The obvious example being failures that end in death, but that's certainly not the only outcome I'd like to avoid.