Whining About My Motivational Issues Re: Having Fun

I have trouble reading novels and playing videogames these days, which is immensely frustrating because these are also some of my favorite activities, when I can get myself to do them anymore.  Last night I read some of the Thrawn: Alliances novel but it took a real effort to get myself to do that.  I did get through both KOTOR games, even though that took me like, a year or so.  I still haven't finished Breath of the Wild, though.  And I do really enjoy all these activities once I convince myself to do them, but I don't understand why I have to exert so much effort convincing myself that I will enjoy things that I do, in fact, enjoy.

I mean, at least I actually feel overall okay, but it's more than a little frustrating to have to goad myself into having fun.