Loftwings and Demons

Like high school wasn't a terrible experience for me and was actually a relatively idyllic part of my life in contrast to what came before or what would come after, but I also have exactly zero desire to repeat the experience or think of it as some sort of 'golden age' period? Like I feel bad for people who are either in high school and think that's to be the apex of their life, or worse, adults who look back on their life and see that as the best period in it. Like, I think of how soul-crushingly bad the other parts of my life would have to be for me to feel like my life as a high-schooler was the most high value part of that all, and I just...have to stop thinking about that. Because I mean...there were parts of my life as an adult where I was literally unable to feel joy most of the time, continuously, for long periods of time. Did I dream of being a high-schooler again, a time period when I actually largely didn't have that problem? Still no. I don't know. Maybe it's just because it's in my personality to always want to move forward in life. I may want things that I had when I was younger, but I don't want to relive those times or give up everything I've gained since then.