Loftwings and Demons

I love napping. My naps can throw my sleep schedule off because they are erratic, but I'd rather that happen than further sleep deprive myself.  Also I have an easier time sleeping more than sleeping less, and I know that sleep deprivation is really a lot more harmful than people often give it credit for, unfortunately. 

I'm also especially useless when I'm tired because I don't tolerate caffeine very well.  I have used it to keep myself awake before, but only infrequently.  Would be nice if the negative effects of caffeine weren't so...unpleasant for me, but they are, so I carefully monitor my caffeine intake.  I go through my tea extremely slowly despite the fact that I love almost every variety of tea I've ever had.  If I have too much it really makes me feel terrible, but even amounts I know won't turn me into a jittery mess cause me problems.  I think part of it is that I'm kind of naturally a high anxiety person who is easily agitated, and caffeine exacerbates both of those qualities in me lol.  That and caffeine either makes it easier for me to focus and be productive or harder, so the lack of consistency in that regard is rather irritating as well. 

I had caffeine today but it wasn't as much as last time.  I had a medium peach green tea this time, so that's probably less caffeine. I think it's caused me to post more today though, lol.  I usually don't have caffeine days this close together.  That was like only a week ago?

Today (Yesterday?) was very eventful.  I had caffeine (Thai iced tea) and lost internet access for a while.  Neither of these things were reasons why my day was eventful, but they were both related to the fact that it was.  I was immensely productive, though, and I wonder how much was the caffeine and how much was the lack of internet access for a significant portion of the day.  I have reason to believe they both contributed in this respect.

I wish I was that productive every day.  There's so much more I want to do, but I feel like I spend most days being so unfocused and ineffective.  But for a number of reasons, I avoid regular caffeine intake (one being that caffeine is known to increase anxiety, which I already have in overabundance haha), and I rarely have the self discipline to avoid the internet, particularly without circumstances forcing the matter. It's frustrating.

I frequently lament how sensitive I am to caffeine.  Wanted to get a chai tea the other day but decided not to because I was feeling a bit too anxious and I was worried the caffeine would make it worse.  I love tea and chocolate.  It's tragic.